Never break when you cannot make

Life is paradox of many uncertainties that happen between two certainties of Birth and Death. Both certainties can never ever be controlled however the science increases its clutches.The funniest part of life is knowing that you can never ever live for ever and still crave for living for ever.
We can never appreciate the beauty of life when there is no death.
We can never like the unlike when there are no likes.
We can never decide when there are no options
We can never love when there is no hatred.
we have no right to break when we cannot make.
We can never collide when we cannot move.
We can never enjoy spending when we cannot earn.
We can never be what we are when we are not what we are.
We never ever know what we are until one you know expresses it.
We always forget to understand that the YOU is not happy cos of I unless they say it.
Its just cos I enjoys being with and spending with and talking with and fighting with you for no reasons specific and in doing so forgets that You never wants I for any specific reason for any thing and its just the sheer rudeness of I that shackles the YOU's Paradise into bits and pieces and still does not even know that I was reason. By the time I realizes it everything is gone. As You had suffered and I never knew it. Repentance by moving apart does not even turn for good as it only troubles as You is inquired about I. But still I should understand that You never likes the company of I cos of reasons unknown which shouldn't be ever asked.

Death/life....Choice/Option !!!!!

I thought I would die if I couldn't have you.
Now that I know I can't have you
Death seems inferior to this pain... ♥ ♥

I gave up my fight..
I know u dont need me..
and I have nothing else to loose
And I want nothing else to gain also.. ♥ ♥

I'm not Ur Choice...but Whenever u get hurt..
I hope u'll think of me as an Option at least.. ♥ ♥

Till Last I Breathe..
You Will Remain Silent In My Heart.. ♥ ♥
...I Still hope to hear something from you... ღ•

Moment when Heart stops beating

That moment when heart stops 

That moment when heart starts pounding to beating

That moment when heart stops brain from thinking

That moment when heart starts winning over mind.

It happens when You and I are near as if we have been dear forever

We may not be of same color..
We may not be of same race..
We may not have same opinions..
We may not have same feelings..
but still We happen to talk and talk and talk and keep on talking and
Suddenly You say "I think You love me"

 My heart pauses for a while longer than usual and I pester myself to know truth...:-O

All the possible if's and but's goes in vain,
Wonderfully woven friendship seems to be no more,
Silence starts winning over the longer conversations We had,
Many questions start raising like the giant killers paradise,
There is no Jack to slay them all, as its within You.

 This left me with only my Vodka which once was fun but now a necessity to be away from all my beloveds to make them happier ......

 

Should I or Should I not ??

We never know what is in offer for us until we experience it. But we still hope that what we want is gonna be in offer for us.
Hope is such a great word that rallies the life and spices it up.One can never stop hoping nor analyzing of what he has been offered.The latter one slowly but gradually surpasses the earlier and leaves one in Confusion of what to be hoped.

Is it ... if not this then what.... Am I right in thinking so..

All such questions creep in our mind and we end up forgetting the essence of living i.e., to live.
We never know when the relation has grown from normal Hi's to silly fights and then to crazy questions and slowly to a position where you are treated as a disturbance.
Terrible to hear when the one who once said you are a friend has so many apprehensions just cos of some bloody damn things that happened which knowingly or unknowingly have you involved.
Even more terrible is the fact that you might have passed the hurdles of courtesies but those courtesies were never passed as they are always with you.
I never was,is or will be friend as You never have I as friend at any point of time. I and You existed only cos I never knew that You had so many things which You think of I and were ever reluctant even to let him know them but were sure that I feels them whenever You meet and also that I was the most cruel person in Your life who imparted all brutalities of life into Your self made paradise and left you all bruised up with scars. To heal the scars I needs to give back what You have given and what You have asked for.
Funniest part comes here when You fix up and at the end , end-up giving a miss at it for the reasons best known to you, as always :)

No complaints, No regrets, but the only burden that I shall have is not able to give back what I is ought to give back when asked for ..
I never expected anything hence I is left with nothing as usual except with what he is ought to give back as it was never his own.

What it takes to be I from WE

Another confusing title... but could not resist naming so :P

Its difficult to understand
Its difficult to talk
Its difficult to be with me
Its difficult to bare me for more than few days

These are all what one actually says and I happen to say so that I dont get hooked up for someone who cares Damn ...

Its always easier to be YOU when you are not a part of WE ..
Its always easier to become the part of WE from YOU..
Its always easier to talk when it is WE more and less YOU and I..
Its always easier to do what YOU like when WE exists more prominently than YOU..

These are all what we bound to understand once we end up with the one who chose us as part of them and then ask us to leave for the reasons better known and understood by them

Its better to be YOU when you cannot trust WE..
Its better to be AWAY when you cannot believe in WE..
Its better not to be in the VICINITY of YOU coz WE is a problem..
Its better not to be what YOU were when WE existed coz its again a big problem ...

These are what I have to do .. so YOU dont get any issues .. and WE never exists .. which is what YOU wanted want and should want.. :D

It happens...

We are none when we were born
we are nothing when we first saw
we were a rumor when we met
we never shared the same opinions
we never had the same feelings
we never had the same tastes
but still we met we talked n talked n talked n
talked for so long n
suddenly we end up here where U say U love someone and after sometime say U think I love U and still say U are now only a friend with that guy and also say that I am a FRIEND to U ...
Can we be the same .. at least can u be the same with me ..
Can i be the same .. at least can your heart be the same for you when you talk to me ..

Relation

Deeper in the silly laughs lies the music of a friend
Shallowness to the deeper thoughts lies the beauty of a friend
Higher from the memories,lower from the heart
Arise the warmth of a friend ...

The Strength, The Shadow..
The Truth, The Bond ..
The Value of ME..
The Closeness of being Distant..
The Affection of ignorance..
The Emotion Of Everything n Anything is U n Only U

We Never Know ......

Everyone believes that its easier to break but its the toughest one guys....
Confused.. puzzled..!!!!
But believe me its the most toughest of all the things in the brutal world and I mean it.
We never know who comes closer to our heart and who breaks it until it happens.
We never know when one wants us and when they don't.
We never know when we are needed and when we are avoided.
We never know why we are liked and why we are not.
but we only know that it takes our own cluster of "WE" to break into "ME"
We only know to loose our own-self to give the other in "WE" what they need ..avoid us.
What can we do when the one who needed us wants to avoid us rather than helping out in doing it.
If that is easier then believe me guys there is nothing in this world that is not achievable for you.

Lyf s never what we wanted and we are never what it wanted.

A and B are two good friends. A is a girl and B a boy :)A thinks B loves her and tries avoiding. All the B's and A's friends think A loves B . Most of their friends find it something different when A and B meet.
The above scene is not from any of the theatricals of Gr8 directors. Its the most weirdest fact to face when such a thing happens for B. B neither wants to loose her nor wants to complicate her. So decides to part ..

The above narration seems a little dramatic and sentimental but thats how life is . Its never the way we wanted and we are never the way it wanted us to be.
Its a vicious circle of feelings that really complicate. We express our true feelings when we can be what we are. But can we be what we are ? little confused but thats the million dollar question that has all the answers in it :)
One who finds the solution for the above question feels the purity of life when he was born ... the trueloves of the relation what a mother possesses... the versatility of the nature from what he was when born till now .. and moreover finds the real inner self of him.
Then why don't everyone get the answer ?? Thats what makes the life a torture and leaves us thinking why torture life when it itself tortures. Little sarcastic but still thats what are the true feelings and relations. Those are the real things in the life which remain as fossils forever and ever.

Somehow we learn who we really are and then try living with that.

Confused again with the title ..
Might be after my previous post this one is a shocking statement.
Thats what life has for us in store. Surprises and surprises and even more surprises..
The only thing we can do is to do what we can and leave the rest for what it can give ..
Maybe I am being philosophical , but thats what we always find . We read the way others do when we are fresh in the school but still all of us do not get the same result. Same thing continues and slowly but surely one is bound to know that he can do what he can and leave the rest..But are we all ready to think the same ? Ofcourse not .. Thats what makes the life even more interesting. People with various instincts and mindsets and understanding what they wanna even if you dint mean it ..Thats when we tend to reach the epitome of your thinking and feelings. Then we have to believe one of the famous tatva " Gatam Gatah "
Even that doesnot give you the life as it was earlier but thats what life is ... full of surprises and surprises..
the more you think the more you get .. but at one or the other point you are ought to know :
" Who we really are and try to live with that "

Are we what we are???

Puzzled with the title ....
Spell it out within aloud.Once more and again. suddenly a light from inner glows and a whisper is heard from within posing the question " Are you what you are ??"

We spend most of our time making what others want and impressing others ...

A glimpse of it being, we spending our invaluable childhood in the school, trying to hide the instincts and playing a perfect student role to impress the teachers and in turn make Our PARENTS proud. The rat race for marks, topping the class, impressing teachers and on the road to it , we dig our instincts and the real child in us and have him burried so deep that we loose the whereabouts of existence of such.This saga continues as we grow and slowly we shift from impressing teachers to gals/ guys in the social life and Bosses in the office ; doing or trying to do what they like or would like and forget what we have and we want from I !!!! In trying to do what others like or would like we slowly and constantly develop a tendency of liking what they like and hate what they donot and thereby loose our own self and become the puppets. The only difference being that we have a so called LIFE in us but it has no sheer existence of its own and sway to the tunes of those whom who try to like [ as we like those who like us.. slightly confused about this but its a terrible fact we always disbelive and never ever accept]

Slowly but definitely we are bound to forget what we are until we ask " Am I what I am !!!!"

This is what cropped up, whilst i was half asleep and half immersed in the spirit of Vodka...

Will Symmos be bac

CA loosing yet again a good allrounder n a team player ....

It really takes a lot of pressure and effort to break through in to the present australian team which roy made it after a lot of good innings and brilliant power knocks and his mind blowing fielding n accurate direct hits
After all the efforts is he throwing them away ????
Might be ...But wat has made him do this ????
May be the way his case was dealt by the CA and ICC where in BCCI money power threw out all the tantrums required to save their player where in the CA utterly disappointed the senior pros of the team.
Ricky n haydos had digested it and have come along but roy seems to be still dissatisfied by that matter and his commitment to the team thenafter had always been a matter under concern for the team.
Though he played a few brilliany knocks he wasn't the same roy whom people ve seen earlier

BUt hope to see u back ROY
coz CA cannot afford to loose u for pretty silly reasons like this
n more over u r one of the best players amongst the world in any form of the game

WHAT A DAY OF CRICkET

It was a great day of intriguing test cricket . Two good spinners showing their craftsmanship.Two fast bowlers showing their skills.
Firstly the spinners and their subtle variations which really bamboozled the FAB 4 of the India who are known to be the best in the business against spin bowling with a vast amount of experience and Runs against their name.MENDIS the name itself is a mystery for the Indian batsmen as they are unable to unfold the web of his bowling .In two tests he has 18 victims to his name n has the wall n Very Very Special 4 times . Thats not any luck or a fluke but the pure subtle variations n the spin n the way he uses the fingers with the control that pigeon possessed as a fast bowler .But this guy has got it at the start of his glorious career going to happen in the coming years ................Murali n mahela are surprised at the way mendis had responded .Another Five for on the flat track is a superb achievement by any standards.

Now coming towards the Fast bowlers -----ntini n kallis

Ntini was below par for most of the year and was underrated as a bowler with the reign of steyn but he delivered when it was needed the most when the batsmen have failed and giving a fare advantage to the england under the new captain KEVIN who are fighting for the pride having nothing to loose. He led from the front scoring a ton and taking england to a position from where they could control the match but then came the spell from kallis which removed three quick wickets to give proteas a ray of hope to get back into the match . the wickets he removed were of KEV, FReddie, and collingwood all capable of single handedly taking the match away from proteas.

THIS REALLY LEAVES US FOR A PERFECT WEEKEND WITH TWO GOOD TEST MATCHES BEING POISED PERFECTLY

unbelievable news but true:(

Its been a day of unbelievable things ......firstly had a hiccup with my buddy ........secondly men in blue especially viru playing well .........the news about the new RAJNI's flick KUCHELAN to be banned in Karnataka!!!!!!....the sudden demise of the Ishmeet(just 20) an upcoming singer and the winner of VOI..!!!.......a suicide in the ladies hostel of my university for the detainment !!!.........narender modi missing the bomb by a close shave.........And more surprisingly the bombs in ahmedabad had analogue clocks which worked brilliantly and the bombs at surat had integrated circuits which failed ( surprisingly strange to know that IC failed and analogue passed)

Is it still the gentlemen's game?????

I was just grazing through the few cricket articles right from the India down under serious I just couldn't understand is it still the Gentleman's game kya bholke??
Agreed there were some controversial decisions that went against Indians in that series but can that be called the reason for the Indian loosing that match where in pup bamboozled the tail in ,an over, the last over.
But what followed that is really ruining the game for sure.The financial prowess of the BCCI , more than 2/3rds of the ICC revenues , being shown clearly.The aussies were never again the same in that series ,lacking their mark AGGRESSION, reason BCCI ....
Later came the IPL ,the million dollar baby of the BCCI ,the copy stuff of the ICL (rebel league). [both being the copies of the stanford of windies].It again showcased the financial prowess of the BCCI.
In the Asia cup also it was no brainer to see the way the decisions of the umpires went.There were many close calls that were given in favor of the Indians.No complaints from other sides reason financial power vests with BCCI.
Now the ongoing test series if the new review would have not been there its no brainer for anyone to guess the fate of the match.

TIME TO THINK BEYOND

A perfect example of how a test match has to be played and in particular its the perfect example pf the real spin bowling. Let me stress again its the perfect example of the real spin bowling and really i go by the literal meaning the real spinners.
Who is the real spinner ??Anybody who claims he is a spinner can he be called so or someone with bundle of years of experience and variations in pace alone can he be called a spinner???
Let me get into the match details and check on the statement i made
The rain gods might have sensed the result against the BCCI team and tried hard to reduce the playing by enforcing a late start.Already a session and a half was lost on the starting day and the pitch had something in it for the fast bowlers though for a smaller period.
Zaheer and Ishant bowled well at the start of the innings and grabbed two early wickets making the way into the middle order.Probably the strongest and formidable one considering the circumstances and the stats at the venue support it.Mahela showed his class and Warnapura and samaraweera who are trying to make an impact at the higher level of the cricket that he can play and deliver against the top teams also.Both went on to make centuries to take SL to a safe position.Then came Dilshan who was chosen ahead of Chamara Silva who had a point to be prove for his selection and took SL to a position where they need not bat again by reaching a mammoth 600.
They batted for the whole 3 and half days including the lost session.It was like they were batting on VENUS
Mahela was cautious and made a right decision bu declaring soon the card showed 600.
The whole situation seemed perfectly poised for a draw until the most careless duo forgot what they are playing in as openers. They played in hurry as if its another T20 match . God help em .The wicket of viru at 36 in 5.1 overs was the start of the downfall of the most experienced and the most commendable batting lineup fielded by BCCI.To no man's surprise it is the only wicket to fall for the quickie
The game was set well for the debutant Mendis n the spin wizard Muralitharan to rattle through the Indian batting line-up.Mendis bowling with all the media hype on him lived up to the expectations and bamboozled the wall with a perfect delivery to rattle the stumps. Enters Murali to get the priceless wicket of inform gambhir.He removed the duo of sachin and saurav and left no qualms in claiming another five for -.Mendis finished the innings with the wicket of VERY VERy SPECIAL with a even VERY VERY SPECIAL DELIVERY to rattle the wood.
It was no brainer that Mahela asked Indians to follow-on.
Indian batsmen dint even learn from their earlier mistakes.Viru and gambhir again played in the same way . God someone tell em that its a test match and there is no shortage of the overs here.Mahela dint waste any time in getting his spinners into the attack and they responded well by biting the nails in the coffin as early as possible and ensured that match doesnot even needed another day or session and finished of the innings in style with Mendis signing off the match a two wicket over.
Here one cannot understand what made the two spinners of the lankans unplayable???
Is it the mammoth total they were chasing or the eyes of the media on them or the amount of cricket they have been playing or is it that they felt they had their share of money for this year by playing in the million dollar baby of BCCI , the IPL???
Leave about the batsmen ..,,..What about the two indian spinners who couldnot make it count??
Can we call Kumble still a spinner ??
Agreed he has stats to justify him as one of the best bowlers of all time in Indian cricket... HE has several variations which really are harder to pick..... is that enough to call him a spinner??
What Mendis did was far more better than what Murali did!!!Its not an exaggeration . Though Murali walked away with the MOM award Mendis got what he deserves from everyone ,,.the media ,,the captian .,,the rival team ...and also from the MOM himself that it was easier to pick wickets from the other side as mendis was making batsmen squeez for the runs with his impeccableline and length................
ITS DEFINITELY TIME TO THINK BEYOND AND SEARCH FOR A REAL SPINNER AND THINK BEYOND SRT AND VIRU

LAST TWO DAYS OF MY ENGG--PROJECT VIVA

After a torment of about two months at last we had our project viva fixed for may 5. I was so happy as I need not come again to see the dept. and most importantly the "satti" .The day before I had a hectic work thats to finish the so called replica of our project. It had become a routine for me to be at our HOD's workplace by 10 everyday by then.Sir was not at the place and my classmates and my buddy and my project mate Upender were waiting there for the arrival of sir. Slowly we started gossiping about how the viva would be and such things. Sir had come at about half past 11 or so . He just called up the guy who was supposed to be our savior and to add to our ill fate he was away with his parents for a day out. but to our relief he has accepted to be at the place at least in the eve by 6or so.Now that we had no other job till he comes we again started our routine of passing the time by gossiping and cursing our fates and and also the "satti" . HOD left by around 1 to have lunch assuring that he would be back by 3 or so. We had some light snacks and are back to our business( gossiping n cursing satti ).
By three or so Rakesh had also come down to the place to get the program dumped into the micro controller along with his teammates. We cracked jokes and talked about every issue that came to our minds right from movies to serials , college to school , sports and games and everything..u name it thats in our topic.
As usual HOD was not on time and to our surprise the guy who was our savior for the day had come on time at about 6. He rang to sir and he had come there in about half an hour . Sir had divided the work to him and made the gals who were there to leave first by finishing their job. By now its almost 9 slowly but gradually we were making our progress we crosschecked the hardware part of us and corrected it. At this hour Rakesh's program was not working and they had to work on the program and that left me a partner for the return journey (as he almost comes with me half way back to my home). I along with the savior for the day started to work vigorously on the programming . He was really upset with himself that he was even unable to do the simplest of the programs. (but this is the toughest for us). By some 12 or so he felt almost sleepy but as that was the only time left for us to show something to the external i started to do the programming by using various logical sequences. It went on for about an hour . At about 2 or so i had succeeded in displaying a part of what we intended to do. I was happy and woke our savior and he did some modifications and we again started working on it . By some 5 we had almost finished on what we intended to show to the external though with several modifications( We started with something in mind and ended by doing something else).
Somehow the job of presenting something to the external was done. By now I was totally exhausted and left by asking Upender to assemble the hardware on the board.( But he could not complete it and I had to come and finish it up again). Rakesh and me started back home and were at secbad by some 6 in the morning. To our luck we got the buses and boarded them and I was back at home by some 7 .
I went home finished my daily routine and got ready by 7:30 and had a little breakfast and started back to the HOD's workplace on my activa. I rode at such a speed that I was at my destination in just about 20min or so. I waited at the place as it was locked and HOD said he would be there in 15min. After sometime of waiting one of the students of sir who was in her M.tech had come to collect some material from sir regarding her project. At about 9 sir had come and i had finished the assembling of the kit and giving it the final touches by 9:45. Rakesh also came over to the place and we both started back to the college and were in the college on time . (External has just come ahead of us).
Our viva started and I was like relieved as I believed that everyone would get a 'S' in their project.But my project mates were not of the same opinion and were a little tensed. Upender was the one who was more tensed than anyone in our class . I was strong at the technical stuff and was like provoking him to ask something to that side. At last we had completed our viva and he asked us to be ready with the kit we had and gave out some inputs on how the project thesis has to be made.( We made it in a day I suppose ). I was now totally relaxed but my mates were still not until they heard from others that they too were given the same treatment inside. We got ready with the kit and were talking about various things which I hardly remember as I was feeling sleepy(an effect of previous days work).
The external came and dint even check out instrument completely ( We are saved ) . He again gave us some suggestions and wished us good luck for our future and left.
Thus we completed our project and I felt as if I won the whole world . Here I would like to mention that we haven't got our thesis reports signed by our guide "satti". I dint even meet him for that (stood at the back when everyone approached him for it so that he could not even see me). After that I talked about various things with Teja (my project mate) and we also took the no dues from the department and had few signatures done and we both chatted for sometime at the parking lot . At about half past three I bid bye to my frens and started back to my home to have rest for at least some two days as I hardly could sleep for about 15 days as I had to stay at the HOD's place as upender alone was reluctant to do the thing though his house was near for some reasons unknown ....
I reached home at about 4 0r so and slept . When I woke up to my surprise it was the next day morning 5 ......