Moment when Heart stops beating

That moment when heart stops 

That moment when heart starts pounding to beating

That moment when heart stops brain from thinking

That moment when heart starts winning over mind.

It happens when You and I are near as if we have been dear forever

We may not be of same color..
We may not be of same race..
We may not have same opinions..
We may not have same feelings..
but still We happen to talk and talk and talk and keep on talking and
Suddenly You say "I think You love me"

 My heart pauses for a while longer than usual and I pester myself to know truth...:-O

All the possible if's and but's goes in vain,
Wonderfully woven friendship seems to be no more,
Silence starts winning over the longer conversations We had,
Many questions start raising like the giant killers paradise,
There is no Jack to slay them all, as its within You.

 This left me with only my Vodka which once was fun but now a necessity to be away from all my beloveds to make them happier ......

 

Should I or Should I not ??

We never know what is in offer for us until we experience it. But we still hope that what we want is gonna be in offer for us.
Hope is such a great word that rallies the life and spices it up.One can never stop hoping nor analyzing of what he has been offered.The latter one slowly but gradually surpasses the earlier and leaves one in Confusion of what to be hoped.

Is it ... if not this then what.... Am I right in thinking so..

All such questions creep in our mind and we end up forgetting the essence of living i.e., to live.
We never know when the relation has grown from normal Hi's to silly fights and then to crazy questions and slowly to a position where you are treated as a disturbance.
Terrible to hear when the one who once said you are a friend has so many apprehensions just cos of some bloody damn things that happened which knowingly or unknowingly have you involved.
Even more terrible is the fact that you might have passed the hurdles of courtesies but those courtesies were never passed as they are always with you.
I never was,is or will be friend as You never have I as friend at any point of time. I and You existed only cos I never knew that You had so many things which You think of I and were ever reluctant even to let him know them but were sure that I feels them whenever You meet and also that I was the most cruel person in Your life who imparted all brutalities of life into Your self made paradise and left you all bruised up with scars. To heal the scars I needs to give back what You have given and what You have asked for.
Funniest part comes here when You fix up and at the end , end-up giving a miss at it for the reasons best known to you, as always :)

No complaints, No regrets, but the only burden that I shall have is not able to give back what I is ought to give back when asked for ..
I never expected anything hence I is left with nothing as usual except with what he is ought to give back as it was never his own.

What it takes to be I from WE

Another confusing title... but could not resist naming so :P

Its difficult to understand
Its difficult to talk
Its difficult to be with me
Its difficult to bare me for more than few days

These are all what one actually says and I happen to say so that I dont get hooked up for someone who cares Damn ...

Its always easier to be YOU when you are not a part of WE ..
Its always easier to become the part of WE from YOU..
Its always easier to talk when it is WE more and less YOU and I..
Its always easier to do what YOU like when WE exists more prominently than YOU..

These are all what we bound to understand once we end up with the one who chose us as part of them and then ask us to leave for the reasons better known and understood by them

Its better to be YOU when you cannot trust WE..
Its better to be AWAY when you cannot believe in WE..
Its better not to be in the VICINITY of YOU coz WE is a problem..
Its better not to be what YOU were when WE existed coz its again a big problem ...

These are what I have to do .. so YOU dont get any issues .. and WE never exists .. which is what YOU wanted want and should want.. :D

It happens...

We are none when we were born
we are nothing when we first saw
we were a rumor when we met
we never shared the same opinions
we never had the same feelings
we never had the same tastes
but still we met we talked n talked n talked n
talked for so long n
suddenly we end up here where U say U love someone and after sometime say U think I love U and still say U are now only a friend with that guy and also say that I am a FRIEND to U ...
Can we be the same .. at least can u be the same with me ..
Can i be the same .. at least can your heart be the same for you when you talk to me ..

Relation

Deeper in the silly laughs lies the music of a friend
Shallowness to the deeper thoughts lies the beauty of a friend
Higher from the memories,lower from the heart
Arise the warmth of a friend ...

The Strength, The Shadow..
The Truth, The Bond ..
The Value of ME..
The Closeness of being Distant..
The Affection of ignorance..
The Emotion Of Everything n Anything is U n Only U

We Never Know ......

Everyone believes that its easier to break but its the toughest one guys....
Confused.. puzzled..!!!!
But believe me its the most toughest of all the things in the brutal world and I mean it.
We never know who comes closer to our heart and who breaks it until it happens.
We never know when one wants us and when they don't.
We never know when we are needed and when we are avoided.
We never know why we are liked and why we are not.
but we only know that it takes our own cluster of "WE" to break into "ME"
We only know to loose our own-self to give the other in "WE" what they need ..avoid us.
What can we do when the one who needed us wants to avoid us rather than helping out in doing it.
If that is easier then believe me guys there is nothing in this world that is not achievable for you.

Lyf s never what we wanted and we are never what it wanted.

A and B are two good friends. A is a girl and B a boy :)A thinks B loves her and tries avoiding. All the B's and A's friends think A loves B . Most of their friends find it something different when A and B meet.
The above scene is not from any of the theatricals of Gr8 directors. Its the most weirdest fact to face when such a thing happens for B. B neither wants to loose her nor wants to complicate her. So decides to part ..

The above narration seems a little dramatic and sentimental but thats how life is . Its never the way we wanted and we are never the way it wanted us to be.
Its a vicious circle of feelings that really complicate. We express our true feelings when we can be what we are. But can we be what we are ? little confused but thats the million dollar question that has all the answers in it :)
One who finds the solution for the above question feels the purity of life when he was born ... the trueloves of the relation what a mother possesses... the versatility of the nature from what he was when born till now .. and moreover finds the real inner self of him.
Then why don't everyone get the answer ?? Thats what makes the life a torture and leaves us thinking why torture life when it itself tortures. Little sarcastic but still thats what are the true feelings and relations. Those are the real things in the life which remain as fossils forever and ever.